Six years ago, on that afternoon of a breakup, standing at the bus stop, my ex-girlfriend left me a sentence: "You don't even have a solid background, what future are we talking about?" That sentence cut deep. Every time I open my account and see that small balance, I grit my teeth and swear to make a comeback.

In April 2022, I stared intently at the market screen. LUNA plummeted from $119 all the way down. I clenched my three-year savings of 50,000 yuan as my principal, and at the 102 yuan mark, I boldly opened a short position.

The next few days felt like a roller coaster ride. The numbers on the screen jumped — 50,000, 300,000, 600,000 — until that night when it broke past 900,000. My hand holding the mouse trembled uncontrollably, tears blurred the screen, and only one voice echoed in my mind: "Finally, I can prove myself."

But greed is truly terrifying. I didn't set take profit levels; instead, I was sleepwalking into full-position bottom fishing, always thinking I could earn one more wave and turn things around completely. Less than two days later, LUNA plunged straight into hell, with "zeroing out" news filling the screen, and my account was emptied.

I sat in front of my computer in a daze for three hours, too exhausted to even close the page. My throat felt bitter — the so-called "shortcut" led only to pitfalls at the end.

After that, I set a strict rule for myself: no all-in bets, no blindly catching the knife to bottom fish, no going against the trend. Before each trade, I first write down on paper "Can I handle the worst outcome?" then slowly enter with three positions, drawing stop-loss lines more clearly than anything else. I no longer obsess over "overnight turnaround," but focus on "how to survive longer in this market."

Over two years, my account had already grown several times the initial 900,000. But every time I opened a position, I still thought of that night with 900,000, and remembered that sentence at the bus stop.

Now, looking at the words "background," I finally understand: true confidence isn't about how much you've suddenly earned, but about how much you can hold onto. Many people are still staring at the screen hoping for "quick riches," but compared to gambling, learning to be a "survivor" first is the real skill to last until the end.